And so i board the train home from work. Eye half shut, hair going all direction, and in my messy half uniform. Oh yes, i shut everything and everyone around me. I don't give a damn on how i look, all i care for is me to reach home as soon as possible where i can dive into my bed and sleep the whole day. And so the train i took is rather packed and there's only a few seats around. I sat down beside this malay guy with a toddler, his daughter i guessed, on his lap, and yeah, obviously he's sitting on the priority seat which he deserve the seats very much lah. The journey went through peacefully and i eventually doze off, hitting my head hard numerous time on the glass window. Yes it was embarrassing. Anyways, while i was dreaming of my Juliet, i suddenly got awaken by a commotion. When i opened my eyes, i saw this Apek keep on repeating "Saya Mau Duduk!", in a rather demanding manner to the malay guy that was sitting on the priority seat. This malay guy ignored this apek making the situation more intense. I pretend to sleep. And well, this apek, never gives up. I got so pissed off with the uncle. Im tired and all stress up from work and this is the last thing i expect to happen. I gave that apek a long cold stare, stand up and give my seat to him.


And hey this fu*king apek, can walk and stand normally without any aid. Meaning, hes healthy enough to stand throughout the journey. The fu*king priority seat is for those who really need it, not just for old people. So to those old people who is still able of walking and standing, please don't make age as a reason for you to own the priority seat. So typical of this minority. Ugh, disgust me.


I alight the train soon after and hit the exit. And so i tap my Ez-link card at the exit gate and how heart shatering it is to see the reader state that my available balance in my ez-link is -$0.41. Why it's heart shattering? Because, i don't have a single cent with me. Yes! NO MONEY TO CONTINUE mY JOURNEY HOME VIA BUS. Its like oh no, nono. Its a distance from the MRT station to my house, a long 30 minutes walk. nd so i took out a ciggrate and have a smoke outside the shop at Wdls MRT station, hoping to see anyone i know. And true enough, i saw Fairuz my secondary school friend there smoking. And takder hegeh reggae, aku tros mintak dier 1 dollar. Huhu. Buat muka tebal eh. Selamat jiwa aku.


And to the government out there, hear my cry. I'm begging you, raise the pay for all NSMAN!!! You expect us to work for you with the tiny amount of pay you gave us. With my qualification right now, i can easily earn 3 times more than what you paying me. If you can't provide me that amount of pay, jolly well cut the length of the service from 2 years to 1 years. Its wasting time and money. Do you know that, fresh graduates tends to forget the things they learn when they got them self a job after 2 years of NS? Don't you guys think 2 years is too long? Oh my gosh. Enough of me blabbering. There's nothing i can do to change all this.


Or maybe i should change my lifestyle and spending habbit so my pay can last me for the whole month. Is it possible? $700/month. Possible? Maybe its possible to survive if i didn't do any shopping. And not forgetting my countlss cab riding to everyhere i go.And yeah, the nearer the location is, the more i would take a cab. And to work, i always tends to be late, and yah obviously i would just wait by the road and flag a cab. I can tell you I roughly spend $150/month on taking cab. Seriously, i should quit taking cab in whole. $120 for transportation, $150 for cigarette, $120 for bills, $150 for food, $150 for cab, which total accumulate to $700. Ni blum termasuk duit aku pi shopping lagi tau. Mampos aku.


Ok aku stress. I wanna go sleep. Tired.