Say hello to my up coming baby that I'm adopting. His name is Elmac Brook. He's from California,US. Been browsing through his profile since last year December and i think i've decided to start a family with him.

He was born in the morning of Thanksgiving last year. He got this white complexion with smooth curve. Very firm and sleek looking. I even heard that he's high in intel. He got a few siblings which i adopted 1 of them in the year 2003 but recently died due to some sickness. But anyways, this new adopted child of mine, i will cherish him well and take extra care with him. I will sure bring him wherever i go coz i know we will be unseperable.

My adopting apointment will be in April where he will be lawfully my child. Wish me luck in the process ok. I've included his picture below. I'm sure you will love him.

Picture of Elmac Brook

I'm feeling much better now. Its true when someone says that time can heal everything. If i were to act rashly without giving sometime to think, i would have probably lost the battle resulting losing my love ones. And now i'm back, better than ever. I'm ready to proceed ahead in life.

I think im wiser now. :p

You're not talking to me anymore.
You're not calling me anymore.
You're not asking me out anymore.
No more hug and kisses from you.
No more confession from you.
No more secret sharing from you.
You didn't even wave me goodbye.

Im emotionally hurt with this changes.

And so i got my pay today. $768. Pathetic.
$300 -Give Mudda'i (to save for Japan Trip wid him and friends)
$61 -Monthly bus concession.
$141- Monthly Starhub bill.


Total amount used today: $502
Available balance: $266


$266 to survive till next month. Yes, i can do it. As i calculated, i'm only allowed to use $66 from now till the 20th. Should be affordable lah. And talking about saving money this month, i think my schdule doesn't consist much money. As you see below, thats my schdule for the month of Febuary. Not much money needed. The retreat to KL is all covered coz the accomodation will be covered by my friend. Won't be shopping too. Just a retreat for me from my busy working life.

13th Feb: Haryati Pre-Engagement day
14th Feb: Haryati Engagement Day/Valentines Date
15th Feb: Work
16th Feb: Work
17th Feb:
18th Feb: Nadya 22nd Birthday
19th Feb: Work
20th Feb: Work
21th Feb: Barney Birthday @ Aloha /Retreat to KL
22th Feb: Retreat to KL
23th Feb: Retreat to KL
24th Feb: Retreat to KL
25th Feb: Retreat to KL
26th Feb: Retreat to KL
27th Feb: Work
28th Feb: Work

And so i hope at the end of this month i wont be as poor as last month.
Happy spending uols.

Dearest friends and family members,


Im changing my e-mail soon everyone. Still using "sopielicious@hotmail.com" but will wholly shifting to a new email, "sopi@live.com.sg" address by 1st April. I will give some time allowance in order to get everyone altogether in my new e-mail address. So not to miss anyone, im giving 2 months for this shift.


My current email will be deleted on 1st April. Please note that all my online account will be replace with this new email account. That includes friendster, facebook, blogger and etc. This shift is going to be tideous but i hope it will go smoothly without missing any contacts from my current account.


Sorry for any inconvinience cause.

Kurik-Kurik.
Tuan tuan dan puan puan, apa kah itu kurik kurik.
Kuikuler, kurikulom? Tidak?
Atau pun bahasa sopan dewa bebunga untuk perkataan korek?


Bila gue mengugel perkataan "kurik" ini, ia tersiar di dalam sebuah puisi.


"Yang kurik itu kendi, yang merah itu saga,
yang baik itu budi, yang indah itu bahasa."


Kurik itu kendi? Apa itu kendi? Dah, memacam pelik aku tengok kan bahasa melayu nih. Apapapon(the term for whatever), bila gue check dekat kamus, kurik dan makna nya,


Kurik: speckled - having a pattern of dots


Ok, whatever it is, thats not what Kurik means for Haryati. Yah, shes the one who introduce the word Kurik to me. And not forgetting "irit" too. She out of a sudden, when she makes a lame joke, and takder orang tertawa, dia tros ckp, "kurik kurik", ala ala nak buat reaksi untuk lame joke, ala ala bunyi cengkerik gitew lah. Ader ke cengkerik bunyi dia kurik kurik? Setau aku bunyi dia krikkitt krikkitt. Mungkin seperti apa aku kata tadi, cengkerik tahap dewa yang berbual bahasa bunga kot. Entah lah eh..


"Kurik Kurik.... Wahahahahahahaha" bergitulah ceritanya semalam.

And so i board the train home from work. Eye half shut, hair going all direction, and in my messy half uniform. Oh yes, i shut everything and everyone around me. I don't give a damn on how i look, all i care for is me to reach home as soon as possible where i can dive into my bed and sleep the whole day. And so the train i took is rather packed and there's only a few seats around. I sat down beside this malay guy with a toddler, his daughter i guessed, on his lap, and yeah, obviously he's sitting on the priority seat which he deserve the seats very much lah. The journey went through peacefully and i eventually doze off, hitting my head hard numerous time on the glass window. Yes it was embarrassing. Anyways, while i was dreaming of my Juliet, i suddenly got awaken by a commotion. When i opened my eyes, i saw this Apek keep on repeating "Saya Mau Duduk!", in a rather demanding manner to the malay guy that was sitting on the priority seat. This malay guy ignored this apek making the situation more intense. I pretend to sleep. And well, this apek, never gives up. I got so pissed off with the uncle. Im tired and all stress up from work and this is the last thing i expect to happen. I gave that apek a long cold stare, stand up and give my seat to him.


And hey this fu*king apek, can walk and stand normally without any aid. Meaning, hes healthy enough to stand throughout the journey. The fu*king priority seat is for those who really need it, not just for old people. So to those old people who is still able of walking and standing, please don't make age as a reason for you to own the priority seat. So typical of this minority. Ugh, disgust me.


I alight the train soon after and hit the exit. And so i tap my Ez-link card at the exit gate and how heart shatering it is to see the reader state that my available balance in my ez-link is -$0.41. Why it's heart shattering? Because, i don't have a single cent with me. Yes! NO MONEY TO CONTINUE mY JOURNEY HOME VIA BUS. Its like oh no, nono. Its a distance from the MRT station to my house, a long 30 minutes walk. nd so i took out a ciggrate and have a smoke outside the shop at Wdls MRT station, hoping to see anyone i know. And true enough, i saw Fairuz my secondary school friend there smoking. And takder hegeh reggae, aku tros mintak dier 1 dollar. Huhu. Buat muka tebal eh. Selamat jiwa aku.


And to the government out there, hear my cry. I'm begging you, raise the pay for all NSMAN!!! You expect us to work for you with the tiny amount of pay you gave us. With my qualification right now, i can easily earn 3 times more than what you paying me. If you can't provide me that amount of pay, jolly well cut the length of the service from 2 years to 1 years. Its wasting time and money. Do you know that, fresh graduates tends to forget the things they learn when they got them self a job after 2 years of NS? Don't you guys think 2 years is too long? Oh my gosh. Enough of me blabbering. There's nothing i can do to change all this.


Or maybe i should change my lifestyle and spending habbit so my pay can last me for the whole month. Is it possible? $700/month. Possible? Maybe its possible to survive if i didn't do any shopping. And not forgetting my countlss cab riding to everyhere i go.And yeah, the nearer the location is, the more i would take a cab. And to work, i always tends to be late, and yah obviously i would just wait by the road and flag a cab. I can tell you I roughly spend $150/month on taking cab. Seriously, i should quit taking cab in whole. $120 for transportation, $150 for cigarette, $120 for bills, $150 for food, $150 for cab, which total accumulate to $700. Ni blum termasuk duit aku pi shopping lagi tau. Mampos aku.


Ok aku stress. I wanna go sleep. Tired.

the new craze at work. SNSD, So Nyeo Shi Dae, The Girls Generation when translated in english. The other version to Wonder Girls. Enjoy

Jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku
Aku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
Tak ingin aku paksakan cinta ini
Meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima


Aku memang manusia paling berdosa
Khianati rasa demi keinginan semua
Lebih baik jangan mencintaiku
Aku dan semua hatiku
Kerana takkan pernah kau temui, cinta sejati


berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini
Dan jangan kau menangis lagi
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma
Sebab rasa aku telah mati untuk menyadarinya


Semoga saja kan kau dapati
Hati yg tulus mencintaimu
Tapi bukan aku.

Come on people, lets sing to Beyonce Halo! Im singing this song everywhere i go, in the toilet, at work (while handling accused), before and after sleep, in the bus and train (case of lost screw), everywhere i tell you, and all this thanks to Reena.

Guys go watch this documentary about the year 2012. This is scary guys.
Link to the documentary

Got shocked when 1 of my blog visitor told me that my blog was unvisitable, stating domain not found or something like that. Was at work when he told me that and i got shocked and yah, can't wait to reach home to check it out. Mana tau kena hack ke dengan kuncu kuncu yang sering nak cari pasalngan aku. But hey, its working perfectly. Change my password just in case.


Anyways, my day at work today was OK. Was deployed as a lock-up officer today. Meaning for my whole 12 hours will be spend sitting down in my roller chair doing almost nothing except for rolling around the lock-up admin area. During that 12 hours of not doing a thing, I sit down and I ponder as I will be all alone even though there’s plenty officer deployed along with me here in the lock-up. Well im used to it though. Anyways, I prefer to be all alone in here, no one to tell me what to do, my own time, my own pace. Anyway back to the topic… Where was i.. Oh yah, I sit and ponder and I ponder about the future. Yes my future. When I think about it, this year, 2009 is the year where I have to decide on my future. Making the wrong decision will end me up in a manhole. And so I’ve decided.


I’ve decided to proceed into working life without pursuing my degree first. Like yeah, I couldn’t afford it now. $16000 is what I need to complete my 1 year degree course. So, is there anyone whose kind enough to sponsor my education? Anyone? Oprah? How I wish. And so I have to get myself employed as soon as I ORD from the police force which is on September. So, by August, I must be busy scouting through the recruitment section and attending numerous interviews. And yes, before attending any interview, I must prepare a portfolio for myself. Oh well, you see, im a designer and certificate is not a necessity. All they see is your previous works and design pieces. Me? Previous works? For goodness sake, I don’t even have a single item to include in my portfolio. So currently, I have zero item in my portfolio.


And so, by august, I have to get my portfolio ready. So I have to start everything from scratch and that gonna take some time to complete. Since I still have ample time, its better for me to start doing my portfolio from now. Yes, more photo shoot and designing to be done. Photoshoot as in really theme photoshoot with real make-up and props. And hey Hid, lets do this together?! And uh.. Yeah more designing works. All plan out in a A4 paper thts now pasted on my wall as a reminder. Like oh my god, lots of stuff need to be done. Well, ill take things one at a time. Still got ample time. Can't wait to ORD but feeling scared at the same time.


And you people, wish me luck. I need it.

My visit to the polyclinic today. Yes of course i'm sick. I'm not those Chao Keng case who goes to the doctor for just a simple flu. This goes to my "siao on" incharge and team-mates, YES IM REALLY SICK. Been enduring the not so pain enduring sickness at work for almost a 2 weeks when i finally decided to visit the doctor when suddenly i had chest pain upon coughing. So what am i having now? A fever, blocked nose on the left nostril and a runny nose on the right. Malfunction in my respiratory system (ceh mcm mana punya serius gitu), causing me difficulty in breathing, thick flam that causes endless cough and a really sore throat.


Ohh yes, all those really sounds exaggerated but what the hell, i'm sick and i can be mentally unstable, i warn you. And well, as per NORMAL, after an excruciating 2 hours of waiting, i finally entered the consultation room. Ok, a rather caring doctor. And there i go complaining bout my sickness like as if its his fault. Well anyways, the doctor give me a simple 2 words conclusion.


Quit Smoking.


And me sitting there giving a blank stare to him. And the best thing is that he threatens me, "You better stop smoking or else you're gonna live with this pain" Like oh my god, like as if i will stop smoking after he says that. Oh come on. All those gruesome image on my cigarette box and those threatening ads on tv and posters at bustop never really makes me wanna quit smoking. Aper lagi nasihat dari doctor tu. Yes i have to admit, its hard for me to quit smoking. Yes there's attemp where all of fail miserably.


Just imagine if i were to quit smoking. No more smoking debate session with my team mates where we always argue about religion. And no reason for me to go for a break while on duty. Yes i tell you, at work, the only break you got is the smoking break. Yes, no official resting time. And without cigarette, i won't be able to be at my comfort point when i'm feeling nervous. And for sure, it will be harder for me to make new friends. I roughly can say, 70% people i get to know is through smoking. You know, you saw someone cute at the smoking area and wish to get to know them, you approached that person and ask that person for a lighter even if you have 2 lighter in your hand. And there you start a decent conversation with them. I tell you, in the duration of smoking a stick of cigarette, its enough time for you to get that person number before the last puff. It works for me.


Oh well, i do cut down on my cigarette intake per day. From 1 box per day to less than 10 stick per day. Yes. But still i do buy 1 box per day due to those people who are social smoker and will never buy their own cigarette. Haha, but i don't mind sharing my cigarette coz i hate smoking alone.


Oh well, im feeling so drowsy now. I think i over dose my medicine. Off to bed now.


Have a good day everyone.

Ok, i'll take back my words. I will continue blogging. Wanna know why? Today i suddenly got lots
of stuff to complains. For now this is the only place untuk saya mengadu. Sedih, takder orang
untuk mengadu. Parents in Malaysia, all alone at home. Haiz.. How am i? Well, fever is still there,
cough getting worst, throat still sore like scalding skin. And adding on to that, im having rashes
all over my body.


Its all over my body, including my face. Red patches all over. I look like someone with a second
degree burn. And it all started at work yesterday. It started all fine when suddenly my wrisk
start to itch. And so i scratched without realising anything. But soon after that, the itch seems to
get worst. My left hand is pink with lots of "mosquito bite like" spots all over. Not only my left
hand, my right hand is infected too. I panicked and start dapping it with hot water. And slowly it
start spredding downwards. My knee is where its infected worst. I became paranoid. Went to
the toilet to wash up where i look myself in the mirror. I gawked to see my face infected too. I
got helpless. Decided to just sit down and aired it (as instructed by Mudda'i). Well it works. The
rash reduces. And i was relieved. Back on duty. And so i went up to the main lobby to released 2
accused. The distance from the lock-up to the lobby is quite a distance, have to climb up flight of
stairs and through many doors. So for sure at the end of the trip, i will be sweating. And there it
goes again, the rashes start to appear again. This time round much more intense. So it concludes,
Sweat=Rash. So to avoid all this rashes, i should not sweat. Meaning not much movement, no
sun, in room below 20 degree celcius and yah, no sweat. Damn.


Can't believe it my team mates (including my OcOps) treat this as a minor case, buat tak peduli
gitu. At least got Mudd who is all concern bout me. Asking me do this, bringing me to medical
room and stuff. Mudds the best. Ugh. Single girls out there, he's the man, go for it! We planned to
go to the hospital together after work but i declined at the last minute as im feeling utterly tired.



And yah, hort parking after work. I message all the crew of fashiographer at 2 in the morning
and to my surprised, izuan replied first. Huhu. But too bad, hes working. Until now, Everyone
replied except for Nadya. I wonder whats shes doing now. Syaz, Masline and Zainah, made their
own plans already. So the one confirm going will be me, Ayid, Reena, Hid, Mujib and i hope
Nadya (wake up my dear!! I need you!!)


Preparing myself for the photoshoot now. Camera charged, HP charged, tripod packed, Flash
checked and dress all up. Yes lah.


Ok, still itching all over.